HAWMC Day 7- Writey Write Write

Hello, I smell bacon

Why I write. Tell us why you write about your health. How long have you
been writing? What impact has it made on your life? Write for 15-20 minutes
without stopping

Awes only 15-20 minutes damit.

Well I wrote things long before my health hit the dumpster.

Actually funny thing is I was delayed in my writing skills as a wee lad so real writing, like the stuff you wanted to do did not happen until High School. Things sorta just flowed out natural like.

Then life happened, the daily grid school work and failed relationships mounted up to me having no time to write.

Then my health changed the course of everything, gone were my dreams, gone were my goals, and down I went into an ugly self denial cycle that crippled me for awhile, not my health but self expression and pride gone.

Then a real cool thing happened, I started ranting how the world around me was treating me, Then how I felt about that, then world issues, and so it went, Social Media saved more than any therapy or wonder drug could even hope for.

Then I fell into a trap because now I needed to give an opinion to everyone about everything, then started getting caught up in everyone else life and not my own, this had to stop. I started back off ranting, and changed direction more to awareness about myself.

 I am pretty messed up in that my illness has illness ok. Writing allowed me to see that and acceptance is one of the most powerful things you can do.

I am who I am and that is all that I am.

People to this day can not grasp that very simple idea.

I have a lot of clutter of stuff in my head, that needs focus or else I melt down. But I have wires crossed for focusing on that clutter into a understandable format for others to make sense of some of the odd and crazy things that come out.

I have been told that is part of my charm and who I am and that if people don't get it that is their loss.

I am not my illness, and my illness is not me.

I have pushed through a lot in my life. I did a crap ton of stuff before the age of 26 before the gears came to a halt. But it has taken me since that time to recreate who I am for the future and that has meant walking away everything I had, wipe everything clean and then accept it for what it was.

So people had questions I found the answers or customized them to fit my wonderfully muddled life. That in turn creates a very compelling story of struggles and success.

Hence my current focus has been to realize my own self worth again, writing helps with that.

I am, a one person army, only I can make the changes needed for me. Only I can best define me to the world around me. When I do that, the world becomes more aware that masks and mirrors do not exist but the human being that stands here is real, but has a different way of thinking and feeling than anyone else.

And you know what, it is awesome and I would not have it any other way.

That is why I write.

Sandman out :)

HAWMC # 6-Sunday Dinner. Who are 5 people you’d love to have dinner with (living or deceased) and why?

Hello rise and shiners,

So, I looked at todays topic about a week ago and was like and on the 6th day I have a topic that is the bane of my existence, and the challenge has hit the fan so to speak.

And that folks is why this called a challenge ha ha!

Hmmmmmmm, tap out I must not, think on this I will.

Ok so here is the deal, everyone I have met or have yet to meet are valuable in shaping my life. Outside of that are the people, iconic historic figures and characters that have all influenced my life.

I can't just pick 5 people, it goes against my very fibre of who I am.

So it is Sunday, I send out and invite of intention to everyone I know, people I want to meet living and dead.

Then I would sit and wait for the first 5 people to show up, and that is who I would have for dinner. I mean share a meal with.

Is it crazy, nope not at all. Because what it means is the 5 most important people that walk through that door is who I need to talk to right now in my life, there messages will be the most important and value cause they made the effort to come and share a meal with me in a prompt manner.  

Outside of that is would just be that damn cool, and be so deeply entertaining that who cares honestly.

think about it, say it is my brother, James Bond, Elvis, John Wayne, and Edgar Allan Poe.

So that is it. A short Blog today folks.

Sandman has left the building

HAWMC Day 5 Superpower Day. It’s a bird, it’s a plane it’s….you! If you had a superpower – what would it be? How would you use it?

Hello sleepy head and coffee junkies,

Today is the day I reveal one of my deepest and darkest secrets, so much so that not even I remember sometimes.

I might be a superhero, sad thing is usually I am so wrapped up with my own life that whatever powers I have are useless anyway.

I work in very simple steps wake up crawl out of bed, forget to feed the Cat, trip over the Cat which then jogs my grey matter. Damit feed the said Cat.

After that take meds, sit let my body depretzelize and oh look it is morning. Then count how much stuff I have to make my body function for, cause you know this is all about teamwork, mind body and spirit working as a whole package dealie.

Once that is out of the deal I reflect back to the last few days of fighting sleep vs zombie state vs energy levels. Figure out after the meds jump start me back in world what I need to do.

That is only the first ten minutes of my day.

Truth be told I am Atlas I carry my life like the world on my back. If I had any Super Powers I am not so sure I would be able handle it, I would break down under the intense responsibility, the world would watch my every move. Can you say instant panic mode.

I would have a Super Alter Ego that would be so good that even myself would not know what I could do to keep from crumbling from the inside out.

 I would need the SHA Super Heroes Anonymous.

Hi, I am Captain Cool Dude It has been 2 hours 5 mins and 34 seconds since I saved the kitten from the tree and it looked at me. I could not take it, I cried like a rain cloud in a tropical forest.

But if I had to choose anything, it would be a one shot deal, that I could send enough energy to every living thing to ease pain, hurt, disease, wounds, colds just enough by degrees that everything could have a better quality of life.

Then I could go back to drinking my tea, and thinking about life and forgetting where my phone was or Squirrel.

In finishing up all kidding aside, I have had to learn to be pretty cool with myself, become my own army in my struggles in life. Overcome things I have needed to and beat a hasty retreat from things I could not handle, and learn to be humble as I know I am just a tiny thing in the big old Cosmos ;) out there.

I am Juggernaut, I am unstoppable
Cheers folks

Day 4 of HAWMC- So you want to have a Theme song?

Hello sleepy Heads,

I have been working hard on today's topic.

Now I misread, the content of the topic today, so the product will be maybe a bit scary. Some of you might want to skip along to the end of the blog even.

Somewhere in my mind I thought OMG we have to take a song and music and make the Theme song to the Blog.

That right there is typical of my thinking, I have an interesting way of looking and reading things at times.

Music to me is a big part of my life. Make a song fit my blog is like wow that is cool never thought of that idea. Oh nos I hope it does not turn out badly. Then I settled down and realized this is meant to be fun and creative.

So I did exactly that, took a song and pretty much changed 85% of the lyrics to it to try to fit my blog.

If you are indeed offended at all by it I am sorry but my hope is this is how it relates to me and that is the way it should be.

I am very comfortable with myself and that includes my flaws as well. So for those that see this is a put down, it is more about fitting words in and making it somewhat work LOL. I have fun doing this and was a  challenge to be sure.

So lets to get down to it,

Song Choice: I need a Hero, the music stays the same.

Where has all the good sleep gone?
And where are all the Beds?
I'm no sleep-deprived Zombie!
Oh my God the costs,

Where's the Nurse with a red pill?
Is it late I can't tell?
Wish I could Dream at all,

I am abnormal, I'm going to be abnormal til' the end of my days,
I'm not that wrong,
People are never last,
And I'll fight for what's right till the end,

I am more than certain about this,
Loving the morning light,
And is it still today,
And should be simple and fun,

Chorus(surprise)

Shortly after midday,
I am seeing something strange,
It is not real and is creeping me out,

Crawling for the pill box,
Numbed with chills,
Will take an army,
To get me off my ass,

Chorus(yays)

Outside I see sky above,
where the Sunlight blinds my sleepy eyes
In my muddled state,
My pills give me a kick,
I feel life come back in my veins,

Chorus repeat till you pass out it ends whichever comes first.

So there you have it lol.

Other songs that I would also work with my blog would stuff like, We are the Champions by Queen or Dark Horse by Katy Perry just to give you an idea.

So I hope you all enjoy while I go recover from this adventure.

Sandman's spoons are out, Peace.

Day #3 of HAWMC

Hello again,

Today is make a Keep Calm and Pass it on create a Logo day. The Flag cause I am from Canada, the ZZZs cause I suffer from Narolepsy and the blue background cause I am high functioning Autistic and it is the color for awareness.

Day #2 of the HAWMC-Wordless Wednesday

So hello,

Day 2 of the WEGO Blog Challenge- A picture is worth a thousand words.

Well I have to say I am slipping back into a more of a comfort zone today.

There was a time where I was kinda lost, i had just finished school and felt I had no outlet to focus on, my health was on the decline and I needed something anything to grab onto.

Hence my choice for the Picture I choose today is my Muse and it started a rekindled interest in writing and why I am even sharing my thoughts with you today. With this is a short poem I wrote, first of many over the years. It is about what I felt my role in life was to be.

Moonlight Guardian

I stand in the shadows in constant watch,

I am the strong, silent strength you never see,

I am the steadfast pillar, always ready to guide,

I chase the fear, worry and, pain away,

I am the soul searcher, loyal patience,

I always hunt those who would harm you,

I am the tenderness that keeps you warm in the darkest hour,

I am a fighter, a lover, a seeker of joy

I am the gatekeeper to a thousand dreams for which you are the key,

I am there always, just for you, the mirror of your soul

I am yours,

Moonlight Guardian

Well I know it is only supposed to be a picture today but this one required a little extra.

Sandman out.

Entry 1 of the HAWMC- Laughter is the best Medicine

Hello Sleepy heads,

Yes I am back, I decided to encourage...err challenge myself. I would enter a month long health activist blogging competition.

So for the month of April, each day I have to write something based on topics given by WEGO.

Today, is Laughter is the best Medicine,

For me, Life in general can be pretty funny.

I mean we all have our days where no matter what we do there is a storm cloud that follows us around. That can`t be helped. What can be though is the ability to find something during the day that for no fault of your own makes you laugh, or at least picks up your day.

Two of the best sources, and maybe a surprise to some of you is Kids, and pets.

Why you ask, you watch movies and TV for an escape. It costs you either money or time to do. Kids and pets however well it is random. Or not expected, a pleasant surprise or a situation that you totally think is going to work one way and ends up not at all the way it should be. Gold star awesome right there.

I don`t have kids, but have seen plenty of examples of kids saying or doing funny things. A list of things kids do that make me laugh, sulky faces, a baby's laugh, kids having conversations with toys, asking a kid about the conversation with the toys, kids eating birthday cake, giggle fits for no reason, singing a song and only knowing two words and making it up as they go, an adult trying to keep a straight face after punishing a kid. Sometimes that is a challenge in itself. Only for non life threatening, non serious things though. Like why did you put a frog down your sisters pants. Yes, they need to know it was not nice but honestly, that is pretty funny just not in the moment.

Pets well they are just amusing lets face it. Without them the world would be dull indeed, they provide unconditional love, and provide annoying but often amusing moments.

And for someone who values energy spent during the fighting sleep attacks and mad sugar cravings. They are the best distraction in the world, sometimes too much so. Like when you need to get anything done or go anywhere. But, stuff like a dog walking into a wall for no reason or a cat chasing a laser dot is good enough for a least a chuckle or two.

Today my Cat Myst wanted to chase a fly( yay a fly it means Spring is here) and well she is not a hunter, an explorer yes but not a hunter, her idea of chasing a fly is more like staring it down because surely it will die sometime right.

A matter of fact I had to at one point direct her to the fact it had landed on her head, as she was puzzled as to where it had gone.

 After about 10 minutes of failing to catch the fly she found a sunny spot had a nap and proceeded to start snoring. That amused me greatly lightened my day and put a smile on my face.

So, in this world of stress, long hours of work, sickness and an ever growing crazy world. Find something to distract or amuse yourself.

You can take a million pills to cure what ails you but sometime laughter is exactly what will help break stress, ease depression, provoke inspiration, ease tension, help your body relax. And it can make everyone else around you feel better as well cause everyone enjoys seeing someone enjoying a moment and smiling.

So, that is it for today, for the future I hope to show you small glimpses of my life through each of the 30 now 29 topics.

Well till next time Sandman signing off.